Quitting Chess...

I usually keep myself busy with a lot of things like my Job, future planning, and social life, but when I am not busy, then its “Chess Time”, the one which comes along with Microsoft Windows that I really enjoy,  and I always try to break the highest record which is really hard that is making me tired of it and about to give up and let it go, because sometimes it doesn’t seem right, or it’s not making any sense to beat up a computer which is designed to be smarter than the human minds, sometimes I feel that the computer knows what is my next step according to the possibilities theory.

In chess as most of you know, there is two armies, black and white, and they are fighting all the time, a battle between life and death, and there where I paused the game and took a look at the screen when I was about to checkmate, and gave a thought about it, can I click on the queen and ask her to shake the king’s hand and say “Let’s Be Friends”? And why he didn’t turn the other cheek for me to slap as Jesus said? Or can she say “hey, I am throwing a party, you can bring all your knights so they can mingle with my Bishops!” What an amazing game it will be when the king says to the queen “I get the door, ladies first”.

I thought of quitting chess, because I realized that it teaches me how to fight and even have the tactics of letting the enemy down and checkmate him with no mercy, and attack him from different angles, and also it sounded racist! Why it’s black and white? Why they are not red and blue? Why always the white looks innocent in it? And the black is the devilish ones that you have to attack and get the evil out of the table, oh my God, that’s exactly United Stated of America in 1950’s or Denmark in 1990’s and Sweden in 2000’s, where the whites are the right ones, and anything else is evil and shall not be welcomed...

It’s a topic that every Swede avoid to discuss with anybody, even with himself, so he is not willing to know the truth neither he cares about it as long as he is living happy, but what if the white people are the devilish ones? According my friend Roland who is a native Swede that Swedes in Trelleborg were known for smuggling cigarettes and Alcohol in 1950’s, which means they were all white, or was it considered as a few good people doing favors to each other’s? It confuses me sometimes the way people are grouped in Sweden, and makes me feel like there are two groups, one is evil, and the other is the kind innocent one.

Having friends from all over the world make you learn cultures, and understand people thinking, which will lead you to improve your way of living according to other’s experiences, and thanks to my friend from Azerbaijan who taught me how to cook scrambled eggs using water instead of oil, actually it helped me the other day when I had no oil and I was so hungry, so there is nothing bad of being a friend with somebody who comes from another culture, actually it helps you in many ways.

I remember when I was living in Dubai between that huge number of mixed races and cultures, everybody like everybody, and everybody is invited to some friend home to taste his ethnic food, and a few imported drinks, that was fun, I wish if I can do that here, and if everybody here in Sweden try to get more involved with other cultures and see the beautiful things in it, and not to think that there is two group of people, and one of them is Evil that must be avoided, which will lead the other group to feel the same and then it’s going nowhere…

So, Here I am, Quitting chess, I don’t want to fight, I want to shake the Knight’s hand, hang out with the pawns, and have a night with the queen, hoping that one day I start the game to see all the elements are in gray…